Happy Birthday Richard Armitage, Happy Birthday to Me - 39 "That's life, That's what all the people say"~Frank Sinatra

Have you ever listened to "That's Life" by sung by Frank Sinatra? If not give it a listen, it's a good song. 

"I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate, a poet, a pawn and a king
I've been up and down and over and out and I know one thing
Each time I find myself layin' flat on my face
I just pick myself up and get back in the race"

I feel like that, I've been all those. Some-days I feel like I've been all those at once. Today I am 39 and I don't feel like it I feel I should be much older sometimes. I know we all have been through a lot but today it has piled up I realize this is the beginning of the last of my 30's and I am not anywhere near on what I had in my mind on where I wanted to be. What's got in the way you say? LIFE!! It has a funny way of doing that doesn't it? We have a timeline all planned out and who ever is in charge of the Universe laughs at us and says "Noooo, I don't think so lady, time is actually all wibbley wobbley timey wimey. It is not in a line!" 

I am starting to grow up but I console myself with the fact that I will never 100% be a "Grown Up" . I will visit never never land when I can, I will dress up when given the opportunity, I will dance and sing(more often than not out of tune) and I WILL HAVE FUN! I will believe that some day a man in a blue box might actually come to find me so we might travel through time and space. Or at least I will be able to live in the UK a bit so I can finally watch an episode of Doctor Who on Christmas Day, there.  Somewhere in the last 10 years I have found my "Geek" and I've learned to let  IT out too. Really if you get a chance  please watch Doctor Who it is an Awesome show. It is about this Alien Time Lord who looks human that travels through time and space. It is a science,space travel,history , sometimes English, Love Story. The  has gone on for 50 years. It started back November 23rd, 1963 and aired 5 minutes late because of the shooting of JFK. I don't know if the Doctor has ever been on time since. 

Also I've learned to be brave and take chances because just maybe if I'm lucky it will be worth it. Like today I did a video (which has been removed as of Jan 2023) wishing Richard Armitage a Happy Birthday and inviting him to my party next year. (Please Share) Do I know exactly what I'm doing next year well maybe not so much. The point is I'm taking the chance, I'm pushing myself out of my safety zone and doing something I've never done before. Yes I'm crazy and I'm OK with that. :) 

So today wasn't such a good day, very emotional . I don't know if it was because I was sick, lack of sleep since I've been taking care of two sick children staying up all night, my hormones kicking in, and/or  the thought of getting older and "being almost half way to dead". There where good moments when I had our "choir" at work sign to me, Brit helping me with my video, Flowers my friend sent, Spending over an hour on the phone with my best friend since Kindergarten (possibly longer it gets fuzzy before age 5. ) 

I am looking forward to next year though I don't know what it will bring but I do know that my other best friend will be home from Afghanistan,  we will have gotten through Nick's Freshman year, (Please Pray for me on this one) I will have two boys with driving permits and possible driver's licenses, I will be half way through my college courses to a bachelors degree, and one more thing but it isn't my story to tell but I'm very excited about. :) I will have brought others into the education of essential oils. Most of all I will know I am loved by my friends , and my family. 

It's bedtime now, I should have been doing Math or Ethics but hey it's my birthday. 

Thank you for reading. 

Autumn Twilight 

Road Trip

So this morning I got up at 4 am to get ready to start my road trip to the Corner of Ohio and back. We were meting her meeting her mother-n-laws sister. We started on our way and headed down to I-80 what a Beautiful drive. It was nice to see the sun rise over the corn as we went. The more south we want though the corn kept getting shorter, maybe it is special corn for Hobbits and Dwarves. wish I would have got a picture of it. 

After a little nap by yours truly I woke up to the radio saying "please go to keepyourhome.org" that makes me feel good, NOT! THEN they tell us how a women plummeted to her death from a roller coaster in Arlington Texas, oh and p.s. her kids were on the roller coaster with her. What has society come to that all they have is bad news. Every once in awhile you here about a here someone doing so something extraordinary but that is so rare anymore. I think if more positive things were reported people's attitudes would change and our economy and life for everyone would get better. Do I think we should shelter us from the bad No , will there still be bad stuff yes. I believe in positive thinking. If you think positively , positive things will happen. Have you ever seen the music man? When asked how he is going to teach the boys band ,he says the "Think Method" that's how I'm gunna teach them. Well I believe that there is some truth to that. 

So that was about 10 am and I put the iPad away to help give directions and start our VLOG so Please check out Today's adventures at http://www.youtube.com/bfb1974 . We discuss our favorite things, Aliens, Sci-fi, find out who Kendra's favorite actors are and if nothing else just watch us be Silly and lots of laughs. Also of you get a chance you can follow me on twitter to see photos from today. 

Now I'm gunna snuggle down get comfy and watch MaMa Mia ,relax and take it easy. Please feel free to comment and keep following. ;) 

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Well I'm feeling good tonight did my yoga and ran 3 miles in 45 min, yeah me! I just hope I don't pay to much for it tomorrow. I haven't lost anything yet but it's only been a few days and its more important I feel good and healthy than anything though the thought at saying I've lost 15 pounds and under 200 is quit exciting but I'm not there yet. It's nice to have things to be excited about it helps keep people motivated. It helps to have friends that help motivate you too and give you hope ;). Also family who are supportive, I am very blessed to have three kids who support me in trying to loose weight they are my best motivators.

Another motivator is that I would like to get into a TARDIS dress. I've seen some of them online and for my birthday I want to dress as the TARDIS. I would like a comic-con birthday party(cause I don't think I'll make it to comic-con) how fu would it be to,have all your closest friends there with you all dressed as there favorite characters. I wish I could remember how's CJ puts it cause she said it the best but a party where everyone ca. Let there geeky nerd side out.

I wish I had something more deep or exciting to say but at the moment I'm just at peace with the world around me. I've cleared my head for the night , opened my heart and just meditating on being one with the world. Trying to feel it move , absorbing the energies from nature that surround my home. it's lovely feeling just "To be" . 

May you all have sweet dreams. 

Much love

Autumn Twilight

7/15/2013 a Change ...

Well today I'm sitting with about 60 extra pounds, I would Like to loose it. I think about things like if I ever met my celebrity crush Richard Armitage would I want to be seen like this.... I wouldn't . I know it sounds stupid to want to loose weight just in case I meet someone I probably won't . I know I should do it for me yes I want to do it for me but I need a little inspiration. It's hard to juggle being a single parent with three kids who all need attention. One who needs it cause he has Aspergers (autism spectrum) , my youngest plus the only girl, and my oldest who does the best at being the man of the house, who shoulders burdens he shouldn't at 16 and who sometimes is shoved out of the spotlight because of the other two. Also I work and am going back to school for my bachelors. Sometimes there doesn't seem enough hours during the day. I have decided to do my best to loose the weight though before my 40th birthday (CRINGE) August 22 2014. It seems like a long ways away now and I wonder if I can do it but I'm going to give it my best shot. Today I ate well & I decided to cut back on meat, I'm not a vegetarian just cutting back. I walked 3 miles and did yoga which it felt good to get out there exercise and stretch. I just have to keep practicing to get better. It's 1 am now so I better get some rest. Have a nice night! 

Love you much

Autumn Twilight

2am Rambaling

I am awake it’s 2 a.m …maybe it’s the vitamins
Cats aren’t Opossums …just saying
Delilah torments me with love songs and talks of weddings
The hopeless romantic in me is addicted
Reuniting with old friends… what took so long
The sleepwalking son gets a drink… he is in bed again
Rory little Rory nestles down closer…. All curled up
Music, I hear the beat, the melody…. It wraps around me
They tell me I can find Happiness from a store… It’s a lie
Where is the music…. Need Less Commercials
Ham Radio… It works when other communications don’t
I’m still waiting for my music…. Waiting, waiting, waiting
I wish I was smarter, If I tried I could be smarter…. Ignorance can be bliss
 

Love

Love is a funny thing, it can drive us totally mad if we let it. When we love someone you know at some point in our life time that we will be hurt , disappointed or absolutely heart broken by something else someone else does. The worse part is we have no control over it cause we have no control over how they feel, or react. As much as we would like to we can't prevent love from happening either. There are no big towers or caves to hide in and we can't run away from it no matter how far we go. It will always catch up to us.

We can't chase it down either. I'm a huge fan of unrequited love. Maybe huge fan isn't the right wording for it but its happened through most of my life where I have had feelings for someone and they haven't returned them.  Where you pray every day to God that they will wake up and change there mind, that eventually you start doubting in God. Where some days it tears your heart out and you don't want to get out of bed, eat, or do nothing at all. It wouldn't matter what anyone said or did it won't help the only person who could ever fix it would be the person you care for and we all know that usually isn't going to happen is it?


Love can be a noun, a verb or an adjective. It is something we can't see but everyone knows it exists. Sometimes it is what gets a through our day besides a cup of coffee. And we all know in reality that gravity and a bunch of other science jumbo makes the world actually turn around Love is what keeps humanity going and growing. It can be a wonderful thing , no it is a wonderful thing and though the journey might be long and hard it is so worth taking.

Hello

Welcome to a blog post about absolutely nothing en-particular. I mean so many things I want to write about I am not brave to because more than likely than not it will hurt someone's feelings. Especially my family and maybe a few friends who I love dearly but frustrate me to no end. I am sure if you would ask them they would feel the same way I drive them absolutely nuts but they love me anyway.